Assalamualaikum,
I remember when I was 6 or 7 years old, I went to some dinner party and an Aunty asked me the most unthinkable question: Do you like your mom or your dad more? At that time, even as a young girl, I knew that this question was absurd. How could any adult with even an ounce of sanity ask something so cruel to a little girl? More over, how could she expect an answer from me? All I remember is blushing and not giving a response.
Who would have thought that now, years from that awkward day at the dinner party, I’d have to face a situation very similar to this. It’s not quite the same mind you, but the issue of favourtism is again being challenged. How do you choose between love ones? You can’t. And should never have to.
I think I’ve always grown up to try to make others happy, make sure everyone around me was happy with my sayings and doings. Lately however, it’s as if every decision and move I make is making one part of my life happy while making the other part of my life unhappy with me. It’s as if I’ve lost that skill I’ve had all these years to console people and to mend relations between others and myself. I feel like I’m being pulled in every which direction.
The most unfortunate thing about all this is that humans, as our nature, never or seldom remember the good things that are done to/for them. We tend to forget the sacrifices others have made or all the times they’ve done good to you. Rather, we remember the harsh words or the mistakes other make. We hold on to the bitter memories of all the times (even if it be only a couple of occasions) when someone has crossed us or done us wrong. What makes us so blind?
Whatever it is that possesses us to behave the way we do, what can I do? What can we do? The best thing to do is continue to breathe and carry on with treating everyone with the utmost respect and showing them infinite love. Maybe that way, they’ll forget the negative things and try to be thankful for all the good things that’ve happened.
If this entry makes no sense — so be it.
pEACe,
Fuzzy
ps. for the record, I’m happy. Alhumdulillah. And in no way am I trying to be ‘emo’ or what not.
Sehar said,
Monday, 24 November 2008 at 9:49 am
Whatever u have written is absolutely right!